Creating Home
I hope you have been enjoying a lovely spring. As the season moves from Taurus season and its focus on beauty and pleasure, I am making progress in creating a cozy home for us in Braselton. One of my biggest concerns about moving to this house was that I would have to combine my former studio space with my office, as I had two rooms for this before and now only have one. As I dug deeper through shadow work into why combining these two spaces bothered me (it even kept me up a few nights), I realized that having them separate allowed me to compartmentalize different parts of my life: my yoga teaching, spirituality, coaching and writing. These passions all felt like individual parts of me that were only made whole by my ability to segregate and protect them from each other. It was a learned response from being raised by a hyper-judgmental and critical father, and a mother who liked to avoid conflict by people pleasing.
My Dad repeatedly showed displeasure with my yoga teaching career and wouldn’t miss a chance to ask me when I was going to stop that ‘silliness’. He got a little quieter when the studio became successful, but the grumbling was still an undercurrent. He did not understand my intuitive coaching at all, and although he knew I was writing again, he never asked to see any of it. Ironically, he found my astrology studies and work fascinating. Due to this, he never saw the whole me - only what he wanted to see. After a lifetime of being less than authentic around him, it became a natural way for me to function. That is, until I reached my mid 50’s, then it became more and more unbearable to be anything but my true self except, of course, with him.
As these revelations became apparent, and I realized where these feelings came from, I knew I had to release them and move more fully into embracing all my passions as part of the whole of who I am. With thoughtfulness and care, I put together my new space. It represents the entirety of my passions: reading, writing, astrology, intuitive coaching, yoga, and all my ‘witchiness’, too. Logan has his own space here as well. I absolutely love it! It is my favorite place to be in our new home and has already inspired so much more creativity in all my work. Last night, unprompted, my husband came into my room and said how much he loved how it turned out. He could see and feel it represented all of me. In our new house and my sacred space, all the parts of me are welcome here, and that makes this place truly a home. All of you are also welcome in the Intentional Living Collective. Where do you feel most at home?
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